I'm leaving tomorrow. I am. I'm going to get all packed up and out of here. If it kills me. I will do it. I want to start working, and make my place pretty, and stuff. I'm leaving. Tomorrow.

Do I have to do this? I mean really? All this packing is making me antsy....

I'm not entirely sure how much longer I'll have internet, so I'm going to blog now. My apartment is half packed -- Matt and I are loading my van full of stuff to take to his place...amazing how much fits in there! We just got my love seat and a wingback chair in at the same time. It's been a long job. Matt's back is all screwed up, so most heavy lifting that can't be carefully balanced is up to me -- sheer adrenaline people....anyway. I'm tired. I've taken a break and eaten, but now I'm back to doing something productive. Surely -- there must be something one can do when half asleep!

The Decision

Alright, some of you have been asking what the decision was. Here it goes. I found out a week ago that I was not given an assistanceship to go to grad school. To make a long story short, that means that I would have to pay for graduate school out of pocket, instead of being free. Anyway. After a week of thinking, and praying, and weighing my options, I have decided not to go to grad school this coming year. I'm going to go work in California at least until Christmas. I can try to get an assistanceship through another department for the spring, or at the least I can return in the fall when I'll probably have an assistanceship through the music school -- lots of them will be up by then. So, I'm moving to California....and I hate moving! It will be good for me...but its been a stressful week...

I hate packing! It's such a mess!

It's amazing -- you go through stress, the stress ends, and then your face breaks out -- proclaiming to the world what a hard week you've had!

Decision made.

Making big decisions right now...........will blog soon.......

Listening to my Recital CD

The first song, good. A couple of breath things -- but I like it so far.

Italian Set -- Rachel, your vibrato is made by breath, not manipulation of the vocal tract. Breath....but really, better than I expected. Some of the high notes I thought surely must have been atrocious were actually pretty impressive. Diction needs help -- but nothing to do about that until I get into a better program...

German song set -- wow! So THAT's what they mean by 'squeelo.' Oooh...didn't like that note quite so much. Overall, not bad so far!

Interesting service this morning. I've never been to a disciples of Christ church before. I found it to be rather baptist, but have no way of knowing if it is merely this particular church that is that way, or the denomination as a whole. They had the most beautiful stained glass window above the baptistry. The service order was rather different compared to other churches I've been to, but that really doesn't make any difference. And the communion was with little shards of bread and grape juice....old home week really. The sermon was good, but it's a holiday, so it should be. I got handed a little mother's day present on the way out the door. They gave them to every woman I think, but it was rather odd to be unmarried, and childless, and still be handed a present. Oh well -- everyone looks old when you're ten.